It feels like a mixture of emotions to see someone else write .....'shows significant signs of ASD' (autism spectrum disorder) about your child if I'm totally honest. I think even though I know what's in front of me I still have had that little bit of denial in me and I think I will until someone actually confirms autism with a proper written diagnosis.
Richard Brooks who attended the last meeting at school is pretty experienced in autism and he said ....' It's fairly obvious Riley has autism' and that felt weird to hear. I still feel like I'm imagining it or making it out worse than it is and I think this is partly because a lot of people have reassured me about Riley's traits and features in the past, which I know they were doing to support and help and reassure me but I'm sure this has made me lack my own parenting instincts if I'm totally honest.
Even though we have been 'in the system' and supported by various professionals, from play workers to speech therapists, since Riley was first referred to a paediatrician aged 2, I feel today marks the start of our diagnosis journey which I'm expecting to be a fairly long one, months if not years but we are finally on the road to getting Riley the support he needs and deserves to grow and develop to his full potential.
Apparently the wait for the first (of many) appointment is up to 18 weeks though they do tend to acknowledge the referral fairly quickly.
So today has been pretty significant and a bit of a reality check for me so trying to get my head around it all, need to get the kids in bed and open some wine and relax in the bath I think :)